Friday, October 9, 2009

Dreamy Eyes

I recently came across an old photo of a good friend of mine and her boyfriend at the time. It was taken when they first got together and were crazy about eachother. The photo hurts to look at now because he recently left her and really broke her heart. Like, REALLY broke her heart. He's with someone else now and traveling with this new one. Put some salt and lemon juice on a wound why don't you. I know the kind of pain she went through - not that I am saying I understand her very unique situation at all - I'm just saying, I've been there, when you have so much faith in your relationship with someone, and it is something very difficult to come back from.


They were both sitting on either side of a hotel bed, the night stand lamp blanketing the room like a psuedo-sunset, and they are both looking to the left side of the room, in the same direction. The only thing is, she has her head on his shoulder and her eyes are, unbeknownst to him, seeking to meet his gaze. She's positioned like him, as if they are on the same ride, except that he's looking down at the ground, and she's looking up, for him. Every inch of her spells it out, it's so hopelessly devoted.




I thought he was an odd one to begin with. Like a child with a social disorder, and she seemed to have made her way into his isolated mind. But the look in her eyes was not completely in union with his. She's dreamy-eyed. Is he dreaming the same thing at that moment? I don't know. No one could tell. I wish she wasn't so dreamy eyed about him.

In all fairness, it wasn't just her that was dreamy-eyed. I browsed some more and there are loads of sweet moments between them where they're mutually indulging in eachother.

I can't help it now, and can't pinpoint why I feel this way, but makes me sad to hear people talk about someone they are in love with sometimes (refer to previous post in August - Sad State of Single Women). How is it that this one person becomes your answer to everything? I sometimes go past sad and straight to angry. I've sounded like that too, don't get me wrong, and it's just as irritating. So it's always a little (okay, more than a little) disappointing when someone doesn't meet your fantastic expectations. Can you blame Dreamy Eyes over there for being hurt? Doesn't a little part of you want to throw something at Sedated Eyes on the left?

This is the first slap in the face for us dreamy-eyed folk. A fantasy about another person in your head will never be. You are basically setting yourself up for disappointment if you expect a crazy love story with a happy ending.

You're quite lucky, are rare to come by if that's your story, but make it easier for the dreamy-eyed girls and don't share your story. You give us hope that way, dammit. Be kind. I have not met a crazy love story with a happy ending thus far.

Feel free to prove me wrong and show me that they do exist and live happily ever after.

Seriously.. feel free. I await your commentary.